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5.31.2003


My next post will be my first post as a MAN. :P
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:56     

Ok, so, with both COA-MATT and school almost over, my freedom is near!!! I'm so exctied. As usual, nothing cool has been happening lately, but today is the COA-MATT ceremony, and it is likely that that event will be interesting, so I will have some good stories to feed to you slavering fiends. Right. And on Monday, I might get to go see Reloaded con Jeff! WOOT!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 13:19     
5.28.2003
SOMEday this site will be interesting again. Until then, here's a cool quote:

I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can't stand it any longer. It's the smell, if there is such a thing. I feel saturated by it. I can taste your stink and every time I do, I fear that I've somehow been infected by it. - Agent Smith

Yeah, sometimes, I know how he feels.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:41     
5.26.2003
P.S. That last post was written with me thinking it was still the 25th.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:31     

I do believe that this has been the most non-exciting weekend I've ever participated in. Nothing but irritating problems. Not only that, but I cannot muster the will power to do my homework. Over the past 2 days, I've written ONE SENTENCE in an essay that is but half done. And I also feel like I've totally let Jeff down, cuz we've been planning forever to hang out this weekend, and I don't think I'll be available, what with all this homework and the COA-MATT rehearsal tomorrow. Sorry, Jeff, I'm a dumbass. And this whole Nessa thing. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:30     
5.24.2003
Ah, yes, Saturday. Too bad I'm GROUNDED!!! Homework is seriously the ONLY thing that is screwing my life up. My life would literally be PERFECT if there were no homework. Like, PERFECT. As in, if there is a heaven, it's my life, but minus the homework. Whereas hell is this, being grounded on Memorial Day weekend.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 16:21     
5.23.2003
LalalalalalalaFUCK.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 20:38     

FUUUCK! Why all the changy, non-stable emotion feeling thingies?!?!?!? Dammit. I don't really want to post it up here, but if you care, ask me what's going on.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 14:42     
5.22.2003
Why, yes, I AM bored.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:09     

1, 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64, 128, 256, 512, 1024, 2048, 4096, 8192, 16384, 32768, 65536, 131072, 262144, 524288, 1048576, 2097152, 4194304, 8388608, 16777216, 33554432, 67108864, 134217728, 268435456, 536870912, 1073741824, 2147483648, 4294967296, 8589934592, 17179869184, 34359738368, 68719476736, 137438953472, 274877906944, 549755813888, 1099511627776, 2199023255552

2 to the powers of 1-42.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:53     

Well, now the homework just has to be done. That will make my life complete. Of course, it's not going to happen...oh, well. Ummm...nothing cool has been happening...just homework. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:17     
5.21.2003
Don't blame this on anyone but yourself. Your choice, your problem, your solution. That's how it should work, Vanessa.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:01     

Deep Thoughts by Jack Handey

#167: If I come back as a horsefly, I think my favorite thing would be to land on someone's lip. Even if they smack you, ick!, you're all over their lip.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 19:37     
5.20.2003
walter: u sukx
me: you swallow
walter: u bite
me: you blow
walter: u chew
me: you...masticate!
walter: ?
me: it's a tight-assed intellectual word for chew

Ah, yes, educating the young minds of america...
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:32     
5.18.2003
So, today's topic is: privacy. If you are posting your thoughts on the internet, a public area, is it wrong for people to read them? I personally write this for the entertainment of others, alongside with the normal function of a journal. If you want a private place for your thoughts, it makes more sense to put them on paper, something REAL that you can protect. I don't know what I'm trying to say here. I guess, I want everybody to read this site, because that's why I made it, and if you want yours to stay sacred, then tell me. Ummm...yeah.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 19:02     

cute but psycho
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse


which happy bunny are you?
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posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:16     

Angry Goth
Angry Goth


What Kind of Goth Are You?
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whatever
posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:14     

Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:11     


Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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posted by Xaq Rothman at 00:08     
5.17.2003
What a STUPID day.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 20:49     

Once, in preschool, I found a transformer in one of the rooms. It changed between a small robot and a tape, and I would put it in my pocket, pretending it was a tape player, and hum to myself. The teacher saw it and had me throw it away.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 18:21     

FUCK HOMEWORK!!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 11:27     

So far, the 7th grade girls at my sister's b-day party have called me:
  • hot
  • gorgeous
  • dazzling
Terrifying, no? Yeah, but I like the attention.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 01:53     

Soon, this mere blog will be a good-sized network of DOOM!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 01:47     

Death is scary. I just realized that you can't really know when you are gonna die. Just now, I choked a little on my OWN SPIT, with noone around. What if it had stuck? What if it had stuck and I just died, suffocated by my own saliva. What a terrible way to die. What a terribly depressing post.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 01:28     
5.16.2003
EVERYONE MUST GO SEE RELOADED SO WE CAN DISCUSS IT IN PUBLIC!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:38     

DOOM. Today, during lunch, I was tossing pencils towards the ceiling, attempting to get them stuck in the tiles, and I got 2 in and DAMN, it was cool, but on the third, I forgot to make sure the area was teacher-free, and MS. MANGURIS CAUGHT ME!!!! And she took me to Ms. Working, and Ms. Working gave me ISS for a day. ISS! FOR PUTTING PENCILS IN THE CEILING! AND SHE'S STILL GONNA MAKE ME PAY IF THE TILES NEED REPLACEMENT(which they won't)!!!! But that's ok. Oh, wait, NO IT ISN'T! IT'S VERY STUPID!!! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:23     
5.15.2003
RELOADED IS SO GOOD!!!!!! I MUST GO SEE IT A BAZILLION MORE TIMES!!!! AND WITH CANDY AND POPCORN AND LOTS OF FRIENDS (and preferably a girlfriend, but that's just a minor detail)!!!!!! I think the Matrix is the Star Wars of our time. RELOADED IS SO GOOD!!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 19:40     

IN THEATRES NOW:
The Matrix:
RELOADED

WOOT!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 06:50     
5.14.2003
HOMEWORK SUCKS! A FAREWELL TO ARMS IS A BORING BOOK! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO READ IT! ARG! And it was a false victory. Oh, well.
Days until The Matrix: Reloaded: 1!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:49     
5.12.2003
Bulimia and Emma=NO MORE!!!!!! YES!!!! Zack and everybody convinced me.. Thanks guys. Anyway, being 5'8" and 125 pounds is good, and I wear a size 4-6 in pants, that's pretty good, right? Well anyway, I'm going to stick to my basic eating pattern of 5-6 things a day:

1.Granola cereal
2.Peanut and Jelly sanwich on wheat bread(reduced fat jiffy peanut butter, and strawberry jelly)
3.No-fat yougurt (light and fit brand)
4.After school snack (fruit)
5. Dinner, whatever I want.

And no puking, I swear. Sides my throaght was starting to hurt.
Emma's Blurty
VICTORY!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:32     

in the 6-cd changer right now...

  • Breaking Benjamin - Saturate
  • Disturbed - The Sickness
  • Orgy - Candyass
  • RATM - Self-Titled
  • SOAD - Self-Titled
  • Tool - ├ćnima
\/\/ () () -|- !
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:30     

Ack, today just went ::pfft:: I woke up, and now I'm here. Freaky. Anyway, while I was at school, my mom made some progress on my room downstairs, so that's cool. Yah. THE COUNTDOWN BEGINS!

Days until The Matrix: Reloaded: 3
posted by Xaq Rothman at 14:54     
5.11.2003
Or maybe half! So, I did my chores, and left for the bus just as my sister and all her friends were getting here. So I ran to the bus stop. Then I stopped. Then I just ran all the way to the metro, stopping for a sec at each bus stop, where I met up with Alix and Alex. Jeff's EVIL parent's said that he couldn't come, so it was just us. So we took the metro to Wheaton. We ACTUALLY used on of those photo booth thingies. And I got orange chicken which I didn't finish and carried around with me all day. It was weird, cuz I was feeling kinda attracted to Alix, but at the same time, Alex and Alix we like, cuddling like they were a couple, which they aren't (I think). So, anyway, we hung out at Wheaton for about 4 hours, and then went back to Alex's. Alex had to do hw, so Alix and I went to visit Jeff, who wasn't home, and then we walked to the metro, cuz Alix had to get home, and I was gonna meet Bruno and Anuja/Otto to go to X2 at the Uptown. Anuja couldn't come, so we just went ahead anyway. Bruno and I parted ways with Alix at the Cleveland Park stop, and walked to the Uptown, bought our tickets, and went in. It was at this point that my chicken was lost, cuz I couldn't bring it to the theater. X2 was pretty good. Not like, Matrix-caliber, but definitely entertaining. Nightcrawler is my favorite, cuz he's cool. Too bad he's all religious. There CAN be faith without God. (By the way, Alex, Jean Grey if definitely NOT DEAD. I guess you just aren't nerdy enough to know this already.) After the movie, we were waiting in the parking lot of the Pizzeria UNO, when a fight broke out between a couple of guys. They left, but the police came, and questioned Bruno, and took his number in case anything criminal happened and he needs to testify or something. After that nothing really exciting happened until this morning after I got home, I found out that Cary dumped Emma, and now she's all depressed and bulimic, and it's making me angry and sad. It's ok to be kinda depressed after a breakup, but Emma has fragile self-esteem and being bulimic is definitely NOT ok. Anyway, I'm kinda trailing off here at the end, and i can't think of any good way to end this post, but I just thought of more things I wanna say, so I guess it's not over. ACK! I have to do all my english make up by Tuesday, or else I will be DOOMED to have a 9.6% FOREVER. OOH!!! AND NEXT WEEK RELOADED COMES OUT!!!! AND THE CHILI-COOK OFF!!!! I'm so excited. By the way, on Wednesday, I will have been online for exactly ONE YEAR!!! I should have a big party...or not. BYEBYE!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 11:09     

Bruno and I were woken up by my mom around 7. We drove to Burger King to get breakfast, then dropped Bruno off. When we got to the dojo, Mr. Cuffy was standing outside. And it turns out that the big cool all day Aikido beach trip type thang was canceled, cuz there was supposed to be thunderstorms later, and they would have happened while we were out on the ocean (or the bay, I'm not sure which Easten Shore they were talking about). So, my mom and I went back to Bruno's, to pick him up, and we just stood outdise in the car for like, 10 minutes, talking about my sister's issues, and then I went and got Bruno. Unfortunately, he couldn't come back, so I just went home, and got on the computer, where I remembered that there were some plans with Alex and Jeff and Alix to celebrate Alix's b-day. We were planning to go to Wheaton, and I asked my mom about it (IT'S 10:23! I SAW IT LAST NIGHT TOO!), and I heard something about my sister and her friends going to Wheaton, but whatever. Ack, so right now, I g2g celebrate Mother's Day, so I will continue this tale at a later time (maybe an hour, maybe 24).
posted by Xaq Rothman at 10:30     
5.09.2003
Today was cool. I had a big "fight" fight with Sebby, and I still need to exact my revenge. We (Bruno and I) went to Iva's, then to TPMS to see if we could find Sebby, but we couldn't. Instead we found my sister, and her disturbingly hot 7th grade friends. It was cool, though, cuz they all think I'm hot, but they are all CHILDREN. Bruno is envious. Anyway, we then went to Martin' s house, and he told us that Sebastian WAS at Takoma, so went back to look for him (and cuz I like the attention). We still didn't find him, but we hung out there, and somehow Jackson, Ian, Nick, and Andrea were all there. Woot. So we stayed for a while, and then we went back to Martin's (even though he wasn't allowed to have anyone over). I played his drums, and used his BB gun irresponsibly (unless you are my mom, in which case I was the only one who DIDN'T play with the BB gun). We shot the walls, and one of Martin's cymbals, and the dart board. Once, I missed the dart board and hit the hard wooden door, and the BB ricocheted off and hit my tummy, where I now have a welt the size of a...well, checking now, it's pretty much gone, but DAMN it hurt. Anyway, when we tried to leave Martin's, we opened the garage door to find ourselves staring at the tail lights of Martin's grandma's car, which was on and occupied. So we ran. Heheh. But she didn't see us, I don't think. We went back to Bruno's where I called my mom, and found that my softball game was cancelled. Anyway, so now I'm posting this from Bruno's and we are probably gonna go back to my place to watch little children while my parents our at a movie. Yah. Call if you wanna hang out (301 270-0111 me, 301 585-3835 bruno)!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:23     
5.08.2003
Spanish is very evil.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:55     

Someday I will try out Xanga.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:03     

Interims suck.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:51     

Ugh, Tech Ed still sucks. I'm so excited, cuz Kevin and I are making a website chronicling our war (to join my side click "join" to the left), and the website is gonna be WICKED COOL! I'm not gonna say anymore, you can see it once it's done. OOH! And today we have 5A lunch, cuz the only time Sra. Gonzalez could get the library was during 5B. And there are lots of cool people in 5A, and most of the cool people from 5B are in my spanish class, so everything is cool. I still have 20 minutes 'til Tech Ed is over. I think I'll post something on the mega-blog (if you wanna join it, first, you gotta have a blogger account, and then you have to e-mail me @ fearthe1023@lycos.com). But first, I will add a few more links.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 08:41     
5.07.2003
thought of the day: hot people are more likely to be pyromaniacs because they want to be around more hotness (Burning Flame) because it reminds them of themselves. (i do not specifically refer to zack here, despite his obvious blazing hotness)
-from Lizzi's profile

COOL!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:52     

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NESSA!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 16:59     

GRRR!!! School is not cool. Unlike Tool. FOOL!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 06:36     
5.06.2003
TAQUITOS!!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:25     
5.05.2003
FUCK!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:17     

I sure wish Blogger would stop being so dumb.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:48     
5.04.2003
Well, it was on my computer clock.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:26     

IT'S 10:23!!!!!!!!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:26     

LIFE FEEDS ON LIFE FEEDS ON LIFE FEEDS ON LIFE
posted by Xaq Rothman at 22:08     

Ok, so Emily isn't a minion anymore. Damn.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:11     

YAY! New layout! And I have 4 minions. If you wanna be a minion, click the Join link. Although, if you aren't signed on IM, it probably won't work. But that's OK! Byebye.
posted by Xaq Rothman at 17:10     
5.02.2003
I'm at Alex's house. We just got back from the softball practice, and I wasn't planning to get sucked into this whole "sports" thing again, but was. Darn. Oh, well. We are listening to RATM REALLY LOUD and it's rocking my socks. Like, my socks are rocking. Well, not really. But if they were sitting on the speakers, they would be. I also have my bass with me, cuz I'm going to Jeff's tomorrow, and I can play along with the songs I know, even if you can't hear a thing of it.

A jail cell is freedom
from the pain in my home.
Hatred passed on, passed on, passed on.
A world of violent rage,
but it's one that I can recognize
having never seen the color of my father's eyes.
Yes, I dwell in hell,
but it's a hell that I can GRIP.
I tried to grip my family,
but I SLIPPED.
To escape from the pain,
and an existence mundane,
I got a .9, a sign, a set, AND NOW I GOT A NAME!

READ MY WRITING ON THE WALL
NOONE HERE TO CATCH ME WHEN I FALL
DEATH IS ON MY SIDE...
SUICIDE!

Settle For Nothing - RATM

Cheerful, ain't it?
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:48     
5.01.2003
And I learned how to play Freedom by RATM! It's cookass!
posted by Xaq Rothman at 21:33     

OK, so ISS wasn't nearly as bad as it could have been. And I am felling a little bit better about my love life...but not much. Oh, well, my time will come. (That's right, Zack, keep your chin up even when you feel that it should be so low you are tripping on it!) Wow, that was a depressing comment. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
posted by Xaq Rothman at 20:30     

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